Jax's Workshop

Shifting to the positive: mountains

butchjax — Mon, 27 Jul 2009 03:17:54 +0000

I’ve been yearning and dreaming of mountains for a while now. It’s not just the beauty of the mountains, I believe, but the year round availability of cool weather which I desperately miss. Living in Texas for so long has thrown me even further out of balance. From what I can figure out, at the most basic I have need to disperse heat according to chinese medicine. I don’t know how I can do that here. Even as I talk about this right now I feel tension and that isn’t helping. I’m going to attempt to shift my focus so I can go to bed in peace and help this process along. I’m just going to make a list of good feeling statements for now to counter the negative thoughts.

1. There don’t need to be many jobs available to move, just one – the one for me.

2. I didn’t feel confident coming into my current job, but I was able to get that job and get out of a previous bad experience. There’s no reason why I can’t do that again.

3. When I allow the universe to move at its pace, things work out well.

4. I have always trusted my path, and it has always worked out for me.

5. I am able to breath and relax, releasing tension.

6. Wouldn’t it be nice if I could find the perfect job opportunity soon?

7. Wouldn’t it be nice if I could find some patience? lol

8. While I wait, wouldn’t it be nice to dream of beautiful places every night?

9. Wouldn’t it be nice if we had a cold snap so I got some relief from the heat?

10. Wouldn’t it be nice to take a shower right now? Yep. And that’s something I can control, so I will do that now. hehe

I still feel some internal tension, actually it’s anxiousness, but I do feel better.

Day 30 (or 2)

butchjax — Fri, 22 Aug 2008 14:58:31 +0000

Day 2 $2000 for high efficiency, good quality washer and dryer set $10,000 for Carrie to see a really darn smart neurologist and give her some relief $10,000 towards all the miscellaneous debt – pay off the people that call us to give us the freedom from our past situations $500 to buy mom and dad a satellite with internet $1000 for rolfing on me $1500 for bodywork on Carrie $5000 to pay back Don, our lifesaver
Desire Level	6/10
Resistance	3/10
Your Comments	I\’m struggling to feel good today due to other frustrations, but I can feel a little improvement as I work on relaxing and visualizing these things. I know it feels great to pay up bills, I\’m just not feeling much of it today.

Prosperity Game: Day 29 (day 1 this time around)

butchjax — Thu, 21 Aug 2008 22:33:40 +0000

Spending	$15,000 to pay off the car $1000 new HD tv $3000 new high quality couch $6000 new king size bed with quality bed fram $1000 to mom to pay back some of our debt $1000 to buy new clothes and shoes for us for work and play $2000 for furniture – computer desk, chair, entertainment center, guest chair
Desire Level	9/10
Resistance	2/10
Your Comments	This feels good today. I haven\’t done this in a while, and I will definitely have to continue. It\’s not about wanting, but visualizing having these things to improve our lives.

The Prosperity Game – Day 28 – $28,000

butchjax — Thu, 21 Sep 2006 05:35:31 +0000

You have completed the game for Day 28.

Summary of Today’s Visit

Spending	I’m assuming I’m starting fresh, as if I just got this out of the blue. 1. Toyota Prius – 22,000 2. Laptop – 3,000 3. Zildjian K cymbals – 500 4. Dental – 1000 5. Acupuncture – 500 6. Glasses – 300 7. Home Gym – 300 8. Shoes – 400
Desire Level	7/10
Resistance	2/10
Your Comments	I’m kinda low today, the result of too much stress. So while my resistance is low, my desire isn’t very high. What I want isn’t bought with money. It’s time, and the ability to make school magically better. But as I let my purchases sink in, I do feel a bit better for it.

The Prosperity Game – Day 27 – $27,000

butchjax — Sat, 17 Jun 2006 18:04:13 +0000

You have completed the game for Day 27.

Summary of Today's Visit

Spending	$20,000 – towards land in BC – The properties available up there are so amazingly beautiful! $3000 – pay up Carrie's medical debt so it isn't hanging over her anymore $2000 – completely new wardrobes that fit and are comfortable $1000 – Tir to personally train us and get us in shape $500 – new computer desk $200 – stock up on gluten free food $200 – dixie chicks tickets $100 – better lamps/lighting
Desire Level	9/10
Resistance	2/10
Your Comments	I looked at pictures of land, and it's amazing! The land I'm falling in love with is very out of vancouver, but I know there is stuff closer, so I will hold onto this dream. We may need to have our house closer to the city, but I want mountain property. With a stream! So exciting!

The Prosperity Game – Day 26 – $26,000

butchjax — Tue, 13 Jun 2006 04:38:22 +0000

You have completed the game for Day 26.

Summary of Today's Visit

Spending	$20,000 – towards land in BC $500 – develop our patio garden $1000 – Ellen vacation $4000 – central air for mom and dad $500 – catch up final bills from old apartment
Desire Level	9/10
Resistance	2/10
Your Comments	I think I needed that break to refocus. it felt good to open this up today, where on other days it didn't. I just got discouraged with all of our expenses, and didn't focus on the fact that everything will work out. So we have no idea how, at the moment, but that's ok! It'll work. So I'm glad I'm back to this, though it's still scary to think of spending this much moeny. But screw it, I want to move forward, and this feels like forward. Hooray!

The Prosperity Game – Day 25 – $25,000

butchjax — Wed, 17 May 2006 16:40:28 +0000

Visit Complete!

You have completed the game for Day 25.

Summary of Today's Visit

Spending	$20,000 – towards land in BC $2000 – Yellowstone vacation to take in the beauty and enjoy the cooler weather $3000 – buy central air for mom and dad
Desire Level	8/10
Resistance	3/10
Your Comments	I had an unexpected expense come up today. However, an unexpected expense isn't a big deal if you've had an unexpected increase come in the day before, right? It's just a little harder to bring my energy back up. I think I'll take a shower and get things moving, renewing my sense of well being. I'm starting to feel better already!

The Prosperity Game – Day 24 – $24,000

butchjax — Sun, 14 May 2006 06:38:01 +0000

You have completed the game for Day 24.

Summary of Today's Visit

Spending	$20,000 – downpayment on land in british columbia $2,000 – donation to New London girls basketball $2,000 – donation to UWRF girls basketball
Desire Level	10/10
Resistance	2/10
Your Comments	Life rocks! Seriously, I\'m in an awesome mood right now. Everything just feels great!

The Prosperity Game – Day 23 – $23,000

butchjax — Sat, 13 May 2006 02:54:49 +0000

You have completed the game for Day 23.

Summary of Today's Visit

Spending	$1500 – UT and WNBA season tickets $2500 – Riding mower for mom and dad Mother's day gifts $1000 – Mom $1000 – Cheryl $1000 – Danielle $1000 – Nate's birthday $10,000 – commission Dale Terbush paintings $2000 – fly Ash down for a break $300 – Bose headphones $700 – Clean Air Machines $1000 – Clothes shopping spree!!!! $1000 – Local animal shelters
Desire Level	6/10
Resistance	2/10
Your Comments	I feel kinda blah tonight. I think I need to go work on other things that need to get done. That should improve my mood.

The Prosperity Game – Day 22 – $22,000

butchjax — Thu, 11 May 2006 06:57:28 +0000

You have completed the game for Day 22.

Summary of Today's Visit

Spending	Since I've been getting stuck, I looked for new ideas, and finally have some. $4000 – scholarships for females in physics at UWRF $5000 – outYouth $3000 – donation to birch creek $10000 – visit sandy in australia and visit new zealand
Desire Level	9/10
Resistance	2/10
Your Comments	Spending money on myself after the horse stuff just wasn't exciting. But creating scholarships, and going to australia sounds fun! It's not as exciting as the horses, but that's ok.